• BigBlue commented on the post, Crafting, on the site TheGentleMan 1 year, 9 months ago

    I remain full of hope the changes i make are worthy of the love i have received and give….

  • BigBlue commented on the post, Crafting, on the site TheGentleMan 1 year, 9 months ago

    I remain hopeful….never have i experienced love till this…and while i messed up badly am trying hard to “fix” and remedy…..hope that makes sense

  • BigBlue and Profile picture of czardasczardas are now friends 1 year, 9 months ago

  • BigBlue commented on the post, Crafting, on the site TheGentleMan 1 year, 9 months ago

    Thanks…one can only hold onto hope and a dream

  • BigBlue wrote a new post, Crafting, on the site TheGentleMan 1 year, 9 months ago

    Dearest Darling

    There was a time for happiness,
    There was a time for tears,
    There was a time for comfort,
    There was a time for frustration,
    There was a time for love.

    I was an idiot of note,
    Of that I […]

  • BigBlue commented on the post, To My Love, on the site Life and Happiness 1 year, 11 months ago

    That they do. Dry tears too…..always holding out. Hoping the beauty and love which was growing will continue

  • BigBlue commented on the post, Conflict, on the site Life and Happiness 1 year, 11 months ago

    Hiya…how u?

  • Dear Noodles

    Your children have made a decision and it appears they sticking to it
    and not prepared to delve into the why’s and how’s. (regarding me)
    Maybe we/you shouldn’t have told them yet. They should […]

  • BigBlue wrote a new post, Conflict, on the site Life and Happiness 1 year, 11 months ago

    How many relationships fail? Whether it is with your lover, kids, parents, siblings or even colleagues. I have been on a personal journey to discover my inner tranquilly. To discover what makes me tick. Not the […]

  • BigBlue posted an update 1 year, 11 months ago

    How many relationships fail? Whether it is with your lover, kids, parents, siblings or even colleagues. I have been on a personal journey to discover my inner tranquilly. To discover what makes me tick. Not the nervous type that would end me up in a psychiatric unit. Even though at times I feel thats what the world was telling me I should…[Read more]

  • BigBlue wrote a new post, Wonderful Day, on the site Life and Happiness 2 years ago

    ThumbnailThis is a wonderful day.  I finally got to hear the voice of an angel.  I went to bed in the early hours after having had a long chat.

    This morning I woke at6amand was rather tired but there is a flicker […]

  • BigBlue and Profile picture of JeaniusJeanius are now friends 2 years ago

  • BigBlue commented on the post, Daughters Birthday, on the site Life and Happiness 2 years ago

    Hiya…have had a tough time but am starting to heal…how are you?

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  • BigBlue wrote a new post, Daughters Birthday, on the site Life and Happiness 2 years ago

    Today was a stunning day.  The hadedas woke me up at 5:15am.  I had slept on the floor in front of the TV. This is due to the fact that i a staying at my mothers house after having lost the love of my life 34 […]

  • BigBlue posted an update 2 years ago

    Three weeks and a bit ago I committed the cardinal sin. I raised my hand to the woman I love more than anything in the whole world. I will not hide behind a psuedonym but will admit what I have done. I dont remember much of that fateful day. You see I have a drinking problem. It was natural for me to wake up and put a nip in my cup. This…[Read more]

    • It may take a long time… it is your closest most vulnerable relationships that you would lash out; you need a whole lot of counseling and support regarding this… and later jointly with your Noodle because Noodle may have trigger conduct that could set you off.

      Noodle’s triggers do not excuse you but if you are to reestablish a joint life…[Read more]

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