Lady Recluse

It’s raining,raining!! Finally!!

A new year has started and  some of the old wounds are still present. Some things change, people move away and it is still the same. Always when on new year I always feel uneasy about what is to come. The past year was for me personally not a very good year. I am hoping to change a few things.  I want to change on  how I look at myself, the way I speak, how I treat other people, be more aware what is going around me, be more kind and the big one have patience with myself and others. And try some new things and not be so afraid to try. It is hard to change when you have enabelrs in your life and they make it hard for you to just stick to your plan. My family, I have to admit are the worst when it comes to enabling. I am on a lifestyle change and the one thing that is my vice, is food. Lately it becaming hard to keep to my plan, but family who are alway helping you fall of the wagon are  also telling you that you are gaining weight. I am one of those people who abuse food for comfort and only recently I had this light bulb moment, to feel like I am loved.

Now in the new year I have one mantra and that there is no buts except for the ones I put in front of me. The limits I have on myself I am going to break it down, one day it a time.

I am always going to write myself in for a one year writer’s course. 

Will see how this rollercoaster of life will take me.

To everyone have a blessed evening.

God bless!!!