My 1st time

Hi Bloggers,

I don’t know if it’ll ever change but I hope it will eventually get better – the stigma attached to being a divorced woman, I mean. Or will I have to choose to close my ears and ignore the voices within. I am pitied, judged, blamed and made to feel like a failure because according to many, what is wrong with me? I am 35yrs old and I keep asking myself if I’ll ever find love again? Or will I have to be content with being a single mother of 1.

I’ll tell you what I still pray for. I pray for a family some day. I still wish for another child or two, why not? Yet I don’t see that happening? And that will be a such a shame. Do I have the right to want those things? The other day I was busy updating my CV and the issue of marital status cropped up and I wasn’t sure what to write. If I fill in divorced, will that jeorpadise my viability in the market place? Will the employers reject me or simply stereotype me? Or does that equal to failure as well?

There’s a divorced woman in my division at work and I’ve seen how they ridicule her. I wish I could have the courage to walk up to someone and say: Hi, my name is so and so, I am a divorced woman.,”  Even more so I would love to have someone react or respond in a positive manner and say: “Hi, so and so – we accept you.” That would be absolutely free-ing.   

But right now, I’ll have to settle with just putting my thoughts on blog platforms… Thank you for that.

Love

Cinderella