LIVING LIFE

It’s been a while since I’ve been around.  So much has happened, or rather is happening.  I’m finding my feet and birthing out of one life into another.

Days have blurred into the past and the future lies stretched out waiting to be claimed..

Why do I do this?

Why do I go back time and time again

To places, people and things

Where I’ve never been…

Always inflicting the same sadness

Ripping open the same doubts

Feeling the immense pain

Wrenching at my heart

Until nothing remains…

 © Explorer 2013

I’m an emotional being
Even though I’m housed in flesh and blood

My soul’s fragile and sometimes adrift
Making this body’s heart wild and pound with fear

There’s an ache for belonging
A craving to know need
To feel wanted beyond belief

There’s no understanding
Always only immense regret
For things gone by and those not in my present yet

Emotions ride the tide of darkness
Forever sweeping aside reason
Making friends with dread
Keeping this being bound, gagged and dredged….

© Explorer 2013

All your life you think you are invincible…
Till your first classmate dies…

Life is short,  enjoy it people…  live the best one that you can.  Don’t stand back for anything or anyone.  No one is going to pat you on your back for putting yourself second…

RIP Debbie

Sterk arms omvou….
Sagte woorde versterk….

More verstrengel in my grootmens lewe

Gedagtes dwaal….
Gevoelens druk….

Vandag vasgevang in my jongmens drome

(c) Explorer 2013

Elke nuwe dag
‘n nuwe ding

Gevoelens ontbloot
Waar’s die masjientekenaar

Die een met die bloudruk????

Die een wat alles weet????

(c) Explorer 2013

I’ve lived on auto pilot
Done things because I should
Now and then because I suppose I could…

I’ve disengaged
Begun to live a bit more free
Started living the me I want to be…

Life has taken my hand
She’s leading me quietly away
To things and places where she knows I want to stay…

(c) Explorer 2013

Oe vang my vas
Woorde sag en kras
Hande wat dwaal

Jy praat so my taal…

(c) Explorer 2013

From time to time in life you are confronted, comforted sometimes by events happening and people entering and leaving your life.

You are touched by these and sometimes just sometimes they last a lifetime. 

Sometimes they don’t  and when that happens, it is as if something somewhere dies, but soon a rebirth takes place, filling voids and spaces that need filling.

The danger in all of this is when the old spills into the new, affecting everything around.  Not the best thing to have happen, but it brings with challenges.  Touches of the past, affecting the birthing of the new and the promise of all it holds.

It is sad that there is no clean cut way of just moving on…